Oh hi! Assalamualaikum!
First and foremost, I would like to thank to time that give me chances to update my new blog which I have not update it for a long time. I missed me the long time ago. A childish me, when I was an active blogger whose joined any blogger event and always blog walking to other bloggers blog. That moment was a great moment when I am really excited and eager to now every single thing about blog and I even edit here and there of my blog until they looks cute! But it was not happening now as I am so called busy with my studies, and my future. But yet! As a freelance writer, it is a happy thing where I can share my thoughts and feelings with everybody in this world even the person was at Costa Rica. S/he can read it! It is amazing when nowadays we cannot even see the device that we're using to get socialize easily. It's named wi-fi. And yeah, if we use it in the right way, we will get many of information which we've never known before. And same goes for the another side.
Basically, writing can make at least I expressed my feelings. Although I know sometimes it is hard to know whether the writer are happy or sad when s/he wrote something that we don't understand like what I've been typed. It is just my passion to type what have crossed my mind and I just love it. Thank Allah for what I am doing. At least I didn't make other person in trouble caused I talked and typed about me myself. I do not bother to talk about artist, gossiping here and there, spreading rumors, that they even not bother to know about me. And it is useless and wasting time to think and care of their life but yours? Did you have a complete life already? ask yourself. Okay, actually I have none of point to throw out here so that I can't go straight to the point.
What really played in my mind right now is, what's gonna happens next? I am scared to face it. I am weak and I admit it. I am not that tough as you think I am, I am just an ordinary girl, small girl, in this very big world. I dreamed much. I imagined much. I cried much. I smiled much. I laugh much. And I am just a slave. A slave of Allah that always wanted to be a better caliphs of Allah. Someone who tried to be a better Muslimah. Who tried to enjoy every moment of my life. Who tried to understand the reasons why of something that happened. Who tried to ask Allah's forgiveness of my sins. Who tried to get Allah's redha.
I actually hates to fight and got angry caused in the end, it will make me sick and I myself who hates myself of what I have done. It is ridiculous! I am tried to avoid get fight with anybody and I don't really meant of what I have said when I am angry. It is only my ego. Yes! Of course I have my egos although a bit and usually I will try to put my egos far away . And Oh! I am really sorry if I have hurt you whose read this. I am really damn sorry. Nothing crossed my mind and I think to stop here. To be continued.
